Blindsided...

To say the least. I'm always unsure of how much to reveal on this blog. Is it just for the grandparents to see pictures of my lovely children. Or can it be a place for me as well. To try and sort through my thoughts or get friendly advice. I'm always unsure. And this feels so trivial to what a lot of people are going through right now. I read several blogs on a daily basis and I just feel for these women. They are going through big things and in the grand scheme of things, this doesn't seem so big. At any rate... this is what is going on in our lives right now.  We have had the wind knocked out of us. Completely. Most of you know that Josh and I had decided to move down to Dothan. He travels a lot for his job so taking this new job would require a lot less if any travel for him. He would also be able to finish his degree. We thought it was a blessing for our family. I still do think that but the question of when we will be down there and how we proceed with the news we just got is unknown. We went house hunting in Dothan and found the house of our dreams. Put a contract on it with a big fat earnest check. Got a good deal, negotiated our closing and thought we were done. So optimistic about it all. Then a couple of days ago the company gave us their buy out offer. TWENTY THOUSAND DOLLARS less than what we owe on the house. Seriously?! Seriously. I cried my eyes out. I think our first thought was just a matter of pride. No way would we take that offer. But that means we can't move. And Josh has already started his job down there. So he would get some horrible, crappy apartment there and we would live here until we sell the house ourselves. If we take their offer, all of the money we have saved for a down payment would go to get out of this house. So no house in Dothan. We would have to get an apartment for a year. Honestly,  if we don't take it and get out of the contract on our new house and Josh gets an apartment that money is gone. We'll have to use it to pay for his living expenses. And the thought of living without him for a year, just coming home some weekends, is nauseating. The whole point of this move was to be together. We have spent our entire life together so far with him traveling all the time. I just can't believe this is happening. 

 I've had a few days to think about it and  I am gaining some perspective. Josh called the other  night and said you know, we have healthy, happy children and we have a strong marriage. This is just a little glitch in the plan. And it's God's plan anyway. I know that He is good. That He only wants good things for us. And what we want may not be what He knows we need.  My sweet friend Keri told me today that maybe He is protecting us from something. His path is the one I want to be on. So I'll trust. I'll trust and be grateful. Whatever comes our way. For all that I have and all that He has promised.  That He will always protect us and that His way is best.

Some wandered in desert wastelands, finding no way to a city where they could settle. They were hungry and thirsty, and their lives ebbed away.Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and he delivered them from their distress.He led them by a straight way to a city where they could settle.Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love and his wonderful deeds for men,for he satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things. “ Psalm 107: 4-9